Monday, January 31, 2005

Where is God?

Dear God
Sarah McLachlan

Dear God,
Hope you got the letter and...
I pray you can make it better down here
I don't mean a big reduction in the price of beer
But all the people that you made in your image
See them starving on their feet
Cause they don't get enough to eat
From God
I can't believe in you
Dear God,
Sorry to disturb you but...
I feel that I should be hear loud and clear
We all need a big reduction
In the amount of tears
And all the people that you made in your image
See them fighting in the street
Cause they can't make opinions meet about God
I can't believe in you
Did you make disease
and the diamond blue?
Did you make mankind
after we made you?
And the devil too?
Dear God,
Don't know if you noticed but...
Your name is on a lot of quotes in this book
And as crazy humans wrote it
you should take a look
And all the people that you made in your image
Still believeing that junk is true
Well I know it ain't and so do you, dear God
I can't believe in
I don't believe in
I won't believe in heaven and hell
no saints no sinners no devil as well
no pearly gate no thorny crown
you're always letting us humans down
the wars you bring
the babes you drown
those lost at sea and never found
and it's all the same the whole world round
the hurt I see helps to compound
That Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
is just somebody's unholy hoax
And if you're up there you'd perceive
That my heart's here upon my sleeve
If there's one thing I don't believe in...
It's you, dear God.
It is Jesus Week at SFU this week. If you are dealing with this type of turmoil and want answers, I'd like to invite you to come to a talk we are organizing called Where is God Amidst Tragedy? Take care.

Where is God Amidst Tragedy?
A talk by philosopher Michael Horner

February 3, 2005

Maggie Benston Centre
Atrium Cafeteria
Simon Fraser University

An event sponsored by Campus Crusade for Christ at SFU

Monday, January 24, 2005

It figures

I stayed up for two hours with no progress for this???
She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:
r u ready for this????

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
it's supposed to be size 20!!!!

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:
are u ready??

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
are u going to make me cry

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
let me get some towels

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
to scream into

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
ok, go ahead

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:
you put a " ( " instead of " {" in line 87

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
I'm going to go scream

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:
eh...happens all the time...

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:
u must be tired

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
I'm running on adrenaline

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
I'm fine

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
how come u could see that

PakG1 - Work already!!! says:
and I didn't

She's so self conscious......she has no idea what she is doing in college... says:
"fresh eyes"

Weird trends in IT

Why is my CSS not working? Why oh why? If you want to comment on my design, check out and let me know what you think. But as I approach delirium, please read these interesting tidbits:

Oh, now I get this comic. It really happened. I thought Illiad was just joking around and taking MMORPG gaming to the next level. I have friends who would build up Diablo characters and set up bots to find rare Ragnorak items, only to sell everything on eBay to people who weren't willing to go through the work of developing their own characters and finding their own rare items. It's logical that someone would eventually want to purchase virtual land as well. But I didn't think it would happen so quickly. Isn't that always the case?

You know it'll happen.
It's inevitable.

After all, if people start dating in chat rooms, it's not inconceivable for them to start dating in MMORPG games.

Are our lives getting a little too integrated with the digital world? Ya think? Not that I'm a luddite or anything, but it is an interesting question for the future of our society. Glimpse spending 24 hours a day on World of Warcraft isn't anything new, he did the same with Ragnorak. But I always pictured our types as the anomaly, whereas we're getting more "normal" every day without having to change.

Go Firefox, Go!

Boo SCO! Oh, come on! This is going to continue longer? I don't even want to post about it anymore. Wake up, courts:
IBM had argued that SCO's discovery motions should be denied since SCO had not proven any of its claims after almost two years.
Seriously, this whole process should halt until that issue can be conclusively settled.

OK... kids are really strange these days.... I blame the parents. Nobody knows how to raise a kid well anymore, it seems. Perhaps that's why I'm so reluctant to try.

But that Mac Mini is very cool, I must admit. Finally, somebody who did the media centre PC right. Why did it take so long? Figures that it would be Apple.

On a serious note, perhaps I should write a serious post about the ethics of technology in our society. Technology is used for good, but obviously also for bad. Case in point: blogs are the new freedom newspapers, but American network routers are used to catch and indict the bloggers. How fun.

I shall get back to my CSS, it calls my name.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

I figure you all deserve to know why I haven't been posting these last few days. Well, the reason is pretty simple to explain. I've been out trying to save the world. It's a thankless job. I don't see any of you thanking me. But this is what I've been doing every single day, risking my life to protect your freedoms and make sure that you can live your lives in peace and happiness. You really should thank me some day. This particular mission was in Colorado, but the details are classified. Posted by Hello

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Whistler was so nice

Ready... Posted by Hello

to... Posted by Hello

ski! Or snowboard, if that's your thing. Why is somebody pointing ski poles at my head? Posted by Hello

I don't think words can easily describe the majesty of the mountains. This was taken at Whistler on Saturday. Posted by Hello

Up we go... Posted by Hello

and then down! Posted by Hello

MIMC 2005: Winnipeg

MIMC was fun. I learned a lot.

This is how we passed the time at the airport, waiting for our flight to Winnipeg. Posted by Hello

Koji going Canadian ninja to survive the cold outside. Ehud took my bags that had my gloves and scarf.... Posted by Hello

Is it any coincidence that there's a Mountain Equipment Co-op located across the street from the hotel? "Ugh, guys, it's freezing, I need a better coat! Whoah, check it out an MEC!" Posted by Hello

Notice how when you dump your stuff on your bed, you are only able to lie on the edge. Compare with my empty bed, as I intelligently dumped my stuff on the floor, allowing for much bed space. Posted by Hello

Seriously, who buys an Iced Cap when it's -40 Celsius outside? Especially when it freezes solid when you DO bring it outside! Running joke was that we needed to eat ice cream to warm ourselves up. Posted by Hello

Consulting our faculty advisor Sam on how to use an iron. Koji was pumped that he had the right answer, but I was too late to photograph his victory dance. Posted by Hello

I'm still trying to figure out how to get water into the dang thing. Posted by Hello

Looking classy at the meet 'n' greet! Posted by Hello

Picture with UBC. They won. Argh! Posted by Hello

Showdown of the pool titans! Posted by Hello

This is how high the snow was piled! Posted by Hello

I always wanted to try buffalo.... Posted by Hello

Yes, I think I would run in real life. Posted by Hello

Mark on the left, and Andrew on the right, were our two ambassadors while in Winnipeg. They were great. Posted by Hello

Picture with Dr. Jeffrey Stamp, the keynote speaker for the night and one of the main judges in the final round of the competition. Posted by Hello

Winter Conference 2004: Saskatoon

I have decided to post a series of photos of my past month, as I am extremely busy this week. I've noticed that my readership has literally dropped by 50%, most likely due to my lack of regular content. So here is some stuff to keep you satisfied. First up are some photos from Campus Crusade's Western Winter Conference 2004 in Saskatoon.

This was our discussion group! Dressed so nicely for the evening banquet. :) Posted by Hello

I think Vicky could be a professional photographer... she took this. Posted by Hello

Monday, January 17, 2005

Friends are worth dying for

Zana's friend scares me.

But reading about her friend reminded me how good it is to have good friends. The ultimate standard by which you can measure your friends is whether you would die for them and they for you.
Greater love has no man than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
~John 15:13
It's 4 am, I'm reading about how Microsoft accidentally destroyed Encyclopedia Britannica, and I'm getting sentimental. I can't remember all of the promises I've made sitting on curbsides at 4 am, chats that changed my paradigm of thought at 4 am, challenges I've issued and received at 4 am, dreams I've discussed at 4 am, trials I've shared at 4 am, failures I've experienced at 4 am, battles I've fought at 4 am, and epiphanies I've realized at 4 am. All to, with, from, by, through, and because of friends. But I have come to realize one thing. A lot of strange things can happen to the human mind at 4 am.

And dang, Locke, my kid will learn calculus before yours even hits graphing equations, you'll see. ;)

Oh yeah, and the crew still needs to make that movie.

The Leadership Thesis: Introduction

Courtesy of Merriam-Webster Online at

Main Entry: lead·er·ship
Pronunciation: 'lE-d&r-"ship
Function: noun
1 : the office or position of a leader
2 : capacity to lead
3 : the act or an instance of leading
In this discourse on leadership, I hope to provide a much clearer definition of leadership. Leadership is difficult to fathom because it is an abstract concept and has many different facets. In this discussion, I hope to analyze all of those facets one by one and eventually create a clear definition and thesis of leadership: a general theory of leadership, if you will.

The many attributes of leadership seem as if they can fall under one of two broad distinct categories: strategy and tactics. Strategic leadership gives the overall vision or end that needs to be accomplished. Meanwhile, tactical leadership deals with the details of achieving that vision or end. You need both, and each category would define a good leader in different ways. A war requires a general to oversee the entire military campaign. Meanwhile, commanders need to be on the field to guide the troops. Likewise, a CEO may create and execute an excellent strategy to guide a corporation to profitability and market dominance. However, tactical leaders are needed to manage sales teams, maintain efficient operations, and develop innovative products.

It will be particularly interesting to see whether leaders in the two categories (i.e. strategy and tactics) need to share leadership attributes at all, and how easy it would be for them to switch from role to role; certainly, everyone has their own skillset, but how necessary is it to actually have those lauded "transferable" skills?

Since the topic of leadership is so broad, I expect this study to wander like a meandering river, jumping from one category to the other, and back again at will. However, I am sure that it will be an interesting and enlightening journey. Your comments will be welcome and requested.

Next: Integrity
Previous: Preface

I am so blessed and I don't even appreciate it

I hate self-pity. Despise it. Abhor it. But I engulf myself in it.

I've always found it strange how quickly I can enter mood swings, from amazing highs to extreme lows and back again. It's like manic depression. It's disturbing.

But the big thing I hate about self-pity is how self-centred it is. The world does not revolve around one individual mortal on this planet, and so what should the world care about a single individual who is undergoing some sort of minor trial? Please compare with the trials that people all over the world endure every day. Self-pity consists of people thinking about themselves, only about themselves, and not taking action to actually change things for the better; when I say for the better, I mean both for them and for the people with whom they share this planet.

So I get sick of people who whine and complain about how much their lives suck, when in fact, their lives are quite nice and attractive. I am usually at the top of the list of people I despise. But the worst. Oh, the worst. People who choose to be in their particular situations especially have no grounds for complaint. You don't like it? Get out of there already. You have a choice.

And so does it figure that we must lose something in order to appreciate its value and realize that there is more to the world than our self-centred sentience?

Thank you for the loss.
Blessed Be Your Name
By Matt Redman

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

Monday, January 10, 2005

Winnipeg is colder than Saskatoon

I did not think it was possible. But it felt way colder.


10. WestJet doesn't deserve to call itself a discount carrier anymore, huh? Not when you have leather seats and can watch satellite TV during the flight. That Payton Manning is amazing! What an arm!
9. Note to self: never forget the scarf.
8. My goodness... she has a Ph.D??? She's in her 30s???? She has a little daughter????? I am glad we never got to finish that conversation in the elevator.
7. You know it's cold when the trails in the park are actually ice and people get around on ice skates.
6. And THAT folks, is why I don't like to drink beer. Though wine can be ok. Ugh, what an awful aftertaste.
5. Dancing at a party. Dancing at a party with a girl. Finding out that the girl is much older. Finding out the girl is married. Finding out the girl has a little daughter. Feeling very awkward. No, this was not the Ph.D lady. But I did learn a lot in the ensuing conversation about important things.
4. Discussing Ben's plans to take over Manitoban real estate. I hope he leaves an acre for me.
3. I got a towel from Switzerland!
2. Getting a headache from the temperature, stomach problems from the water, and the urge to vomit. Why do we do this to ourselves?
1. I know jack about marketing. Anybody who has ever said that it's an easy thing to do has never truly done it. Ouch, ouch, ouch.

OK, I'm making the trip sound a lot weirder than it actually was. That's the shock effect, just for you! I am glad I went though, no regrets. Well, we could have executed on the simulation better, but bygones are bygones.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Here I go with my shot, feet fail me not

Mauro, Ben, Joyce, and I are off to Winterpeg for MIMC. I hope my nasal liquids are better able to handle the cold this time. And this time, I will bring a camera. Why didn't I bring one to Saskatoon? Silly rabbit.... Anyone with pictures of Saskatoon are welcome to send them to me. With the exception of any that portray the events of a certain evening, of course.

We may or may not have a chance to do well in Winnipeg, we'll see. I just hope that the hotel won't get destroyed by a flood of cars.

Part 1 is coming next week. Really. I promise. ;)

When I was in Saskatoon, I finally picked up The Mark of a Man. What a challenge Elliot gives to her nephew:
The world cries for men who are strong - strong in conviction, strong to lead, to stand, to suffer. I pray that you will be that kind of man.
Still on my journey, still too immature. :) I'll try reading it on the plane.

Monday, January 03, 2005

Comments About Saskatoon

10. You know it's cold when your snot freezes in your nose as soon as you step outside. I've never experienced that before....
9. I accidentally left my pants in Saskatoon... that sucks. Not the ones I was wearing on the plane, doofus.
8. The Tim Horton's Beef Bowl is really good....
7. Feather beds and feather pillows are amazingly comfortable. I wonder how often they have to stuff in more feathers.
6. Rice cakes can get fungus. Did you know that? I thought they lasted as long as hardtack.
5. Fellowship with the men is always great.
4. I deny all allegations. All pictures will be destroyed. Beware, I know where you live. And any publishing of said pictures will result in you receiving a fancy letter from my lawyer.
3. Settlers is an amazing game. It's quite easy to stay up for over 24 hours if you're playing it through the night.
2. I met a lovely lady who has inspired me to new heights in certain areas of my life. Whoever marries her will be a lucky man! It's not often you see such maturity at such a young age these days.
1. Andrew may be happy to note that PakG1 may finally have been given a dream. We'll live and see whether this is the path to take.

Blog is word of the year.

Please donate to relief efforts in Southeast Asia. They need your money more than you do. Kudos to Canada for upping the number to $80 million. More, please. According to CP, this is what Canadian citizens have donated so far.

Canadian Red Cross: More than $26 million
Oxfam Canada: $2.3 million
World Vision Canada: $6 million
UNICEF Canada: More than $3.5 million
CARE Canada: More than $1.5 million

Thank you. More please.