Friday, August 27, 2004

The world turns around and you're still in the same place

Wow, I haven't blogged for a while. Apologies, I see I had 22 hits this week. My goodness, who reads this stuff?? Let's see, most of you use Shaw, TELUS, Sympatico, Videotron, Rogers, and a whole bunch of other ISPs. And who the heck is surfing me from the southwest US??
Erm, I can't remember, did I mention that I can't install MT-Blacklist for some reason? I have no idea why, it just won't install, even though I follow every instruction down to the letter, including the extra steps for troubleshooting. Grr. So my blog continually gets spammed and spammed and spammed. I'm going to just upgrade to a newer version of Movable Type, that has some anti-spam features (like the same IP is unable to post comments more than once within a short period of time). It's not perfect, but it'll be sufficient. But Murphy's Law, you know. When it can go wrong, it will. For all I know, I won't be able to upgrade Movable Type either.
I applied to withdraw all my TELUS shares today from the Employee Share Plan. So they should be mailing me this fancy share certificate. Yay, I'll now get... like $4.50 a quarter from TELUS dividends. $18/year! Amazing, what some shares can give you. What an interesting eight months. What were the highlights, what did I learn, etc? The following is being written in random order, as they come to mind.
1. Never do three courses and full-time work at the same time. It sucks.
2. Telcos really are exactly like Dilbert, even if they try to have an innovative culture that makes the future friendly.
3. TELUS is way more than just a telco now, it really still impresses me in its product diversity. And I got to see Clayton Christensen's The Innovator's Dilemma in action, even if none of the managers at TELUS heard of the book.
4. Tennis is fun. I don't know why I don't play more.
5. I missed the mountain snow. I'm definitely buying a ski pass, whether it be the cheap one for Whistler through the SFU Ski and Snowboard Club, or for Cypress.
6. God is always there. I'm the prodigal, not the guy upstairs.
7. Law school? Is it possible?
8. Spending $200 on a Palm Pilot and assorted Palm software better not be a bust, come fall. Will spending $70 on a keyboard be necessary for it to be truly useful?
9. Spending over $400 on a digital camera and assorted accessories was not a bust.
10. Posting on the message board at www.hardcoreware.net is still enjoyable. Props to the members for keeping it fun.
11. It's going to be weird not regularly seeing Anton for 16 straight months.
12. The fireworks were amazing again.
13. When it came down to it, SFU was the school that got the party started on the dance floor in Toronto. :D
14. Rum and Coke leaves such a horrible taste in my mouth.
15. My idea of what to look for in women is finally getting finalized. Or is it?
16. Crepes rock. If I could buy a crepe restaurant in Quebec or France, I would.
17. KRT Group is filled with smart people, we just don't have people with useful unique talents or passions. We might as well become consultants.
18. Good ideas are nice, but darn that stupid new law for China's paper.
19. Whistler Blackcomb is AWESOME! I so would like to get the Whistler season pass (less than $400 through the SFU Ski and Snowboard Club!), but how would I get there? And they don't do night skiing like Cypress...
20. PakG1 is slowly coming back to normal. Wow. For him anyway.
21. Volleyball is great, I'm going to play every Thursday night at drop-in again.
22. We should have kept James on our team, we would have gotten into the second round.
23. God has a plan for each person's life, if only they would be willing to participate.
24. I remembered the promise I made to God during Christmas Conference 2002. As Jim Eliot said, "He is no fool who gives up that which he cannot keep in order to gain that which he cannot lose."
25. MSI in summer 2005 or bust.
26. Might not be able to work on a cruise ship with glimpse and the crew after all... not with everyone getting contracts at EA like crazy.
27. God hears us when we're broken.
28. Don't leave your heart unspoken.
29. Acting as ethics officer for ACE can be an interesting endeavour.
30. Kids can be so cute, but amazingly frustrating.
31. My purpose was, is, and always will be, to be salt.
32. Why do people come to me for advice? Why? What makes people think I have the answers to life's questions?
33. Ouch, I have an anger problem or what?
34. I really should have bought Maximizer stock at 14 cents.
35. Markstrat will rock. Again.
36. I still love my family.
37. Global warming must be a reality.
38. Camaros have friggin little space... how DOES the target market segment fit inside??
39. Anton's car has tiny space too.
40. Chee, these camera phones are useless.
41. The NHL has entered a new generation. There are new powers in the league now.
42. There is a changing of the guard in the Faculty of Business Administration at SFU.
43. Kage bushin no jutsu would be a useful ability to have.
44. The female population is very difficult to understand.
45. Cirque du Soleil was amazing.
46. I still get weird dreams.
47. Ninja Gaiden on the XBox is insanely good.
48. Zeph taught me an awesome exercise to fight carpal tunnel syndrome. You get that working in a cubicle 8 hours a day.
49. So that's what almond tea tastes like. Amazingly good.
50. ABA was a blast. Great four years.
Perhaps I'll post a more mentally stimulating entry next week. Tuesday's my last day, and I cannot wait to get back into the academic life. There's just something about being able to sleep in the morning that's so appealing. And writing project papers at 4 am.
A little learning is a dangerous thing; Drink deep, or taste not the Pierian spring; There shallow draughts intoxicate the brain, And drinking largely sobers us again. Fired at first sight with what the Muse imparts, In fearless youth we tempt the heights of Arts, While from the bounded level of our mind Short views we take, nor see the lengths behind; But more advanced, behold the strange surprise New distant scenes of endless science rise! So pleased at first the towering Alps we try, Mount o'er the vales, and seem to tread the sky, The eternal snows appear already past, And the first clouds and mountains seem the last; But, those attained, we tremble to survey The growing labors of the lengthened way, The increasing prospects tire our wandering eyes, Hills peep o'er hills, and Alps on Alps arise! ~Alexander Pope

Monday, August 09, 2004

Pick your poison

Check this quote out:
"Our enemies are innovative and resourceful, and so are we," Bush said. "They never stop thinking about new ways to harm our country and our people, and neither do we."

The guy's great for accidental statements. :) Man, he's like Dan Quayle. :D I still remember the time Bush called Jean Chretien Mr. Poutine. Heh. I'm loving it.
Gotta provide balance. Here's one for John Kerry.
If I were an American, I must say that I would probably vote Bush, from what I'm seeing so far. But either way, pick your poison. :)
Played tennis with Mauro today. Lovely weather. Dang, gotta work on my serve. He got way more aces than I did. He won the set 6-4. Must finish reading The Bourney Identity by the time I watch it with Rom, in preparation for Bourne Supremacy. Also reading Boundaries in Dating, by Henry Cloud and John Townsend, a book on responsible dating from a Christian perspective. Quite a good book, but the best I've ever seen is still probably The Book of Romance: What Solomon Says About Love, Sex, and Intimacy, by Tommy Nelson. I figure read it all, with Relationships, by Les and Leslie Parrott, as well as I Kissed Dating Goodbye and Boy Meets Girl, by Joshua Harris, and then you'll get a pretty good balance. How'd I get so interested in reading up on this stuff anyway? Oh yeah.

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Not a good first impression...

Back at the camp last long weekend, there was an incident. We had cup ramen of all things for breakfast. I finished my cup ramen and went to throw it out in the big central garbage can. There was this big white sheet on top for some reason and I tried to get it off. Then the can of Canada Dry ginger ale I was holding with my arm slipped. It bounced on the ground, punctured itself, and started spraying. And it came to a stop right in front of this lady that was waiting for the port-a-potty. It was morning, after all. And it was spraying her shirt.

Crap.

Not a good first impression...

/swoop down, grab the can
"Um, sorry, it was an accident... Um, could I get some napkins for you?"
/silence
"Um..."
"No, it's ok."
/finish throwing away empty cup ramen
"Um... yeah, sorry about that."
Dang. What are you supposed to do?

Not a good first impression...

It's funny how a single sentence can disable you and put you on edge for an entire evening. When 15 minutes late for an important appointment (actually, half an hour, since the other party is scheduled to arrive 15 minutes before you do), it sucks. And then you have to leave way early. Freak. Idiot. Yes, thank you. 88 - 60 = 28, not 18, you doofus. Crap. Maybe I just have bad luck around female people. :p I felt like a kid going to a school dance for the first time. Absolutely unsure of anything. It is amazing how much power a single sentence can have.

Not a good first impression...

So I was thinking all of last night and today what God would have me to do with my life. I've been reading Finding the Will of God: A Pagan Notion?, by Bruce K. Waltke. Excellent guy, I've heard him speak at two conferences and was amazed with his insight. He knows his stuff and is part of the TNIV translation team. He argues that Christians these days try to find the will of God by trusting the things around them, rather than developing their relationship with Christ. As one's relationship with Christ is deepened, one has the mind of Christ and will make plans as Christ would. Essentially, that's his main argument, and he goes into detail as to how actually the will of God is actually found. Relying on signs that could or could not be random should not substitute for guidance from the Holy Spirit, God's word, and rationality.

This book has really been the catalyst for getting me back on track with God. I'm probably not there yet, but I feel like I'm finally coming in line again, after a year of going my own way. About a year... didn't she say that's how long it'd probably take? ....

So I've decided to apply for law school. Why? I'm not entirely sure. I recall my cousin saying, "Yeah, I can see you in law school, but not as a lawyer." But I do know that I want to fix injustice. Will I ever actually become a lawyer? Chee, that really doesn't appeal to me. Then why get a law degree? I'm sure that it can be useful even if I don't become a lawyer. I've taken a look at a sample LSAT and it actually looks pretty easy. The biggest problem will be time. I am horrendously slow at doing exams. With the number of questions on this exam, I may finish the LSAT something like an hour after it's over... fun. Taking BUEC 495, Legal Aspects of Economic Relations next semester. Will I become totally robotic in micro-managing my activities and time? It will certainly be a crazy semester, as I'll need a good semester to pull this off. But I know I will not be satisfied with a normal 9 to 5 life. Making a difference, no matter how small or big, is a priority.
As for other halves, I can wait. How many have actually accepted me in this life for who I am? Not many. How many will in the future? Probably not many. We'll wait and see, as always. I just keep screwing up with every sentence, huh? Freak, why can't you just be yourself? Women must be the only entities on this planet that can disarm my psyche. Chee, put me in a boardroom to present a strategy to a CEO any day.
Focus is required now. I recall learning the true meaning of this verse in my Perspectives class.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ~ Matthew 6:33
The word kingdom in Greek is basileia, and has two meanings: rule and realm. Realm is like a physical land over which a king rules. Rule would refer to the king's kingship or authority. In this passage, it would appear that the meaning rule fits more than the meaning realm because of the context of the passage. Jesus is telling his disciples to not worry about anything. Seeking God's rule would assist that because God would have them under his authority and care, while his realm was as of yet not reached.

So seek first the authority and will of God in your life and all these things will come to pass. Essentially, that's what is being said here.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." ~ Jeremiah 29:11-13
It's good to be back.

Heart of Worship
By Matt Redman

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

But... Not a good first impression...

Chee, bygones are bygones. Let it be.

But does it go without saying that I couldn't drink my ginger ale anymore either? :(